reminiscence

i woke up this morning thinking about a certain 'you' and thinking about the times we had tgt n y we din wk out. i nv reali knew the reason, n i guess i nv reali told u how i felt for the few mths tt we were tgt too. perhaps it was mostly my fault for not voicing my views and feelings...things like : i din like keeping things in e dark, i dun like snoopin around to meet each other n coming up w/ reasons y we were seen tgt when we were seen tgt, n keep claiming tt we were juz frens when we were more than tt. in the ~7 mths tt we were tgt, i nv met ur family, nor did u reali tok abt them either...i dunno y but i guess it was my fault for not tellin u tt i liked an open rship which i have nth to hide, n a rship which involved family, which was y i alwayz invited ya to join us at my family events. at the beginning i wanted to make it official which you din wan, n aft a few mths i juz got kinda sick with whole thing that when it was ur turn to want to make it official, i din wan. i juz got tired with the whole tuo tuo la la feeling, like neither here nor there. i had alot of feelings bottled up in me tt i din tell anyone, not even my mum...n i juz kinda felt relieved when it ended. till this day i still feel that there are alot of things inside me, a lot of feelings tt i dunno how to describe in words, alot of feelings tt i also do not know it's origins, indescribable feelings...anyway, to all the hurt which i may have caused, i'm sorry. at least i know now that u're happy n i'm happy for u.